An Opportunity to Escape

This morning, it suddenly seemed absurd my researching narcissism and obsessing about one extremely unimportant individual in my life, and I had to laugh. Not that narcissism is absurd — the personality disorder has ruined many lives — but I have more important things to obsess about, such as my upcoming trip to visit my sisters. (One sister invited us other two to visit her around Mother’s Day to make chocolate-covered pecan and caramel turtles in honor of our mother.)  Now that is something worth obsessing about!

It’s entirely possible this narcissism thing could be a way of distracting me from the impending visit and the very real problems that could arise. Not that I am expecting problems, as such, but the truth is, my two sisters and I have never been alone together, and I mean never. We’ve all been together with other family members. We’ve each of us been alone with one other sister, but never in memory have just the three of us done anything together, possibly because we are so far apart in age. If I really thought there would be more than a little discomfort I would opt out, but I think, despite us three being almost opposites (visualize a unilateral triangle), we are mature enough — or old enough — to manage a weekend together.

Still, I am driving up to Seattle instead of flying to give me the opportunity to escape if need be. Or perhaps I’m driving because I need an excuse for an adventure, a reason to run away from my problems. Oh, who cares why I am driving. I want to. It’s as simple as that.

I am planning to take a couple of weeks to get there, which will allow me to visit friends along the way, to visit a few national parks and monuments and wilderness areas, and to do some camping and hiking and perhaps see some wildflowers.

Just the thought of being in the open feels like a breath of fresh air on my soul. I hope the reality is the same. (I must admit I have a few reservations about my arm, but one way or another, I manage to do what is necessary, so I’m sure I will be able to continue doing so.)

I’d more or less considered not coming back to the desert at all, just continuing to travel, but since I promised to be back for a dance performance, I’m paying my room rent to give me a place to return to.

I really don’t want to spend another summer in the desert — it’s impossible to do much walking, not even in the early morning, and I would like to continue my backpack practice in preparation for a long hike. On the other hand, I don’t really want to be on the road when other people are out in force, and besides, it’s hot almost everywhere in the summer. Maybe not as hot as here, but still hot.

But that is a decision for another time.

Today the only decision I have to make is what national park land to research, what maps to print out. I wish I could be totally spontaneous, and just go without any sort of plans, but my idea of spontaneity is to drive. And drive. And keep on driving. That kind of driving becomes almost a zen-like experience, because as soon as a thought passes through your mind, you’ve left it behind, but it doesn’t satisfy my need for adventure.

So, I’ll close this post and go open my atlas and see where it will take me.

Wishing us all the best of adventures!


Pat Bertram is the author of the suspense novels UnfinishedMadame ZeeZee’s Nightmare, Light BringerMore Deaths Than OneA Spark of Heavenly Fireand Daughter Am IBertram is also the author of Grief: The Great Yearning, “an exquisite book, wrenching to read, and at the same time full of profound truths.” Connect with Pat on Google+. Like Pat on Facebook.


13 Responses to “An Opportunity to Escape”

  1. Wanda Hughes Says:

    It’s not hot here in the summer. Just sayin’.

  2. LordBeariOfBow Says:

    I’d like to be able to just hop into the vehicle, fill her up and just keep driving 50 years younger I probably would 😦

  3. SheilaDeeth Says:

    Ah, you’re driving so you can stop by and see me too! Looking forward to it. Not a sister, but a sister-in-words.

    • Pat Bertram Says:

      A real sister’s trip! You’re definitely a sister-in-words. Wanda is my sister from another mother, And then my sisters from the same mother. And of course I will see you. We already have a date!

  4. Kathy Says:

    A road trip sounds Heavenly! I used to burn up the miles to/fro California and the PNW. Will live vicariously through you until my summer trip.

    • Pat Bertram Says:

      Actually, a road trip does sound heavenly. I am so glad I am the one who gets to go. If you’re familiar with the PNW, and since this is a vicarious trip for you, is there any place I should visit for you?

  5. S.E.May Says:

    Driving sounds perfect, Pat. How far it is it? I’m on the other side of the world and know little about your geography.

    • Pat Bertram Says:

      I think it will be about 3,000 miles round trip, not much compared to my 12,500 road trip, but a good distance. I’ll be driving through all sorts of climates and terrains, hiking and camping in various places, and of course, will be documenting everything on this blog whether people want me to or not!

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