What If?

I faced no traumas today, no conflicts with others, no conflicts with myself, just the normal difficulties that come with trying to haul one’s used body around and make it do what one wants it to do. Luckily, this aging body is only used, not used up, so it managed to do what I asked of it. Like get up in the morning. Like strap on the twenty-seven pound pack and walk three and a half miles. Like go on an errand with a friend.

Now, it’s giving out on me. Actually, no — this poor used body is not giving out, it’s the overused mind that does not want to be tethered to words. It wants to roam free, not thinking, just . . . well, just not thinking. But without words, there is not much of a blog.

Oh wait! Photos! I don’t have to write about where my mind is. I can show you.

Less than four weeks until I am on the road again!

I mentioned to my landlord today that I was going to be gone a month and why, and he said, “I hope you’re bringing mace and a firearm.” I just stared at him, wondering if he were making a joke. But no. He was utterly serious. Then I mentioned to a fellow renter about my trip, and she, too, said I needed mace and gun. Huh? Mine is supposed to be a spiritual journey. (First, of course, an escape. Then a spiritual journey.) There is no killing on a spiritual journey. I’ll just have to be extra careful.

“What if a wild animal attacks you?” they asked. “Or a person?” I had no response to that, of course. There never is a response to “what if,” unless it’s: What if an animal doesn’t attack me? What if I have a wonderful time? What if things go well, and I return refreshed?

What if?


Pat Bertram is the author of the suspense novels UnfinishedMadame ZeeZee’s Nightmare, Light BringerMore Deaths Than OneA Spark of Heavenly Fireand Daughter Am IBertram is also the author of Grief: The Great Yearning, “an exquisite book, wrenching to read, and at the same time full of profound truths.” Connect with Pat on Google+. Like Pat on Facebook.

6 Responses to “What If?”

  1. Carol Says:

    I would think if you’re going to be hiking alone on a lot of wilderness-type trails, having a can of pepper spray wouldn’t be a bad idea. Of course, it would only be useful if you had it out and ready to use, and that isn’t a practical or pleasant way of hiking. 🙂

    • Pat Bertram Says:

      Exactly. I did consider bear spray, but it only works if you the bear is downwind, and even then, sometimes it only makes the bear curious so that it comes closer to check you out. I’ve also considered some sort of dog spray, because for most people, there is more problem with other hiker’s dogs than with wild animals. But there again, you have to have the spray handy, and make sure the dog is downwind. I don’t know what the answer is, but staying home because I’m afraid of encountering a problem is no answer either.

  2. Constance Says:

    Go and be happy. May GOD watch over you.

  3. LordBeariOfBow Says:

    Firing up the trusty ‘Beetle” again and heading due N/S/E or W, really doesn’t matter got to get going.
    Is that your tent. and do you actually sleep in it? Got more guts than I’ve got.
    Come to think of it I haven’t got much at all since the doc chopped away. 😀

    • Pat Bertram Says:

      I’m sorry for laughing, but having the docs chop away your guts does give me more guts than you. That is one of my tents — the middle size. I have a big one I can stand up in, but won’t be able to take it since I will have half a carload of our parents’ stuff to take to my sister. I will also have to leave behind my oh, so very comfortable lounge chair. But it’s only a month, right? And yes, I sleep in this tent. I can’t stand up in it, but I can sit up, which is nice. Best of all, it’s very easy to set up.

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