Dark Too Soon

I don’t mind being alone, don’t mind the reason behind the isolation (a huge upsurge of Bob activity in this area), but having to do it in the dark seems a bit much. I’m not really in the dark, since I can turn on lights, but the sun sets at 4:44 pm. It seems as if the day is no sooner getting started than it’s ending.

Even that, I suppose, isn’t such big a deal, but when it gets dark too soon and I haven’t done my daily blog post, then I panic. Where did the day go? What did I do all day? How can I write if I can’t remember?

I’m glad, of course, that my days are so uneventful. I’ve had enough trauma to last me a lifetime, and even though some friends are going through disastrous experiences, I am at one remove from their situations. A lesson I learned from my grief days (days? No. Years!) is to let people have their own sorrows. I empathize, of course, but I can’t take on their sadness — it belongs to them. Come to think of it, I’m even at one remove — or several removes — from my own grief. In four months, it will be twelve years, and that is a long time. (To put it into perspective, that’s the time it takes for nine-year-old children go through puberty then the teenage storms and finally to reach adulthood.)

The only thing of note I did today was turn my Suspense/Thriller Writers Group on Facebook from public to private. FB is changing the way they do groups, so now if you have a public group, anyone can join immediately without being vetted. Considering how many spammers find the group (not just robots but also authors who only want to promote their books), it would turn a rather innocuous and inert group into a nightmare. Besides, since my blog URL is still blocked, I have little interest in spending any time on FB. For now, I reblog this blog to another blog and post that URL on FB, but when they discover my ruse, and block the reblog, then I’m finished with them.

Although it’s not particularly noteworthy, since it’s something I do every day, I did go out and water my lawn. It still astonishes me that I did that — add a bit of lawn. I wanted just a small corner of grass in my yard (else what’s the point of having a lawnmower), but since I didn’t know how big of an area a pallet of sod would cover, I agreed to buy the two pallets a local landscaping company had left over from another job. I worried that it wouldn’t be enough to cover the 400-square-foot corner; instead it covered 1,000 square feet, if not more, especially since they had a partial pallet left over they threw in at no cost.

I suppose 1,000 square feet isn’t all that much lawn, though it seems huge when it needs to be watered.

Oh, and I did manage to blow most of the leaves off my rock, but a big wind will simply blow them back. So here’s hoping the winds remain fairly calm until the leaves settle in.

I hope you’re doing better with the early dark than I am. And to think it will continue getting darker for the next six weeks! Hmmm. Perhaps I shouldn’t think about that.

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2 Responses to “Dark Too Soon”

  1. Estragon Says:

    The early dark is definitely unsettling. For me, it also brings out an uneasy cynicism born of too many years in retail, and all the other stresses of the “festive” season. The sudden change (“falling back” from DST) seems to also add insult.

    Bob is apparently misbehaving here too. The powers that be have assured us they’ll reveal the new restrictions we’ll be living under soon, so there’s that. People following the rules get more rules to follow. People not following them get more rules to ignore… something for everyone! Maybe that’s a bit cynical?

    My recently blown leaves seem likely to be entombed in the foot or so of snow expected shortly, as are the weeds I didn’t get to. Having more or less decided (but not yet committed) to be living elsewhere before spring, I’ll try to focus on the logistics of that in the meantime. I’ll also try to remember the days have been getting shorter since June, and there’s only a little over a month left to go before they start getting longer again.

    • Pat Bertram Says:

      I just had a graphic example of how Google censors what we see (though they say they are catering the search results to our special needs). I tried to find out what sort of restrictions Canada is going to be putting in place, but all I can find are results about travel restrictions from the USA. Not that it matters what the restrictions are — as you say, the people who follow the rules will have more rules to follow, and the rest will have more rules to ignore.

      And no, you don’t sound cynical, just realistic.


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