I Am Truly Blessed

As I was setting up for my party last night, cooking the various taco fillings, chopping the many garnishes, and arranging everything in a pleasing and practical manner, I thought about all the people I had invited, and what they meant to me.

First were the people from my grief group. When I came here after the death of my life mate/soul mate, I joined a grief group to be with others in the same hideous and incomprehensible situation, and they helped me get through that awful time. I’m still friends with some of those folks, though I don’t see them very often, and it was nice to think of seeing them again.

Then there was the group I went walking with. Through the hugs we shared and the stories we exchanged during the three-mile walks, these friends helped see me through the torments of dealing with my dysfunctional brother and dying father.

And finally, the dance group, especially our teacher, who helped me see that life was still worth living, that there were still things to be learned and much joy to be experienced.

Although I hadn’t planned the party to be anything other than a simple get-together with friends, it turned out to be more than that — a chance for me to say thank you and to let everyone know how much they meant to me.

While I was making my little speech to my guests, I realized the truth: that although the past five years as I lived them seemed to be one trauma after another, in retrospect, because of these people, those years seem pretty damn wonderful.

I am truly blessed.

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Pat Bertram is the author of the suspense novels Light Bringer, More Deaths Than One, A Spark of Heavenly Fire,and Daughter Am I. Bertram is also the author of Grief: The Great Yearning, “an exquisite book, wrenching to read, and at the same time full of profound truths.” Connect with Pat on Google+. Like Pat on Facebook.

Pre-Probate Party

There is a probate hearing next week to rule on the administration of my father’s will. Since this is the last weekend I know for sure I have a place to stay (though I guess I’ll be here at least another month), I am celebrating with a pre-probate party. Nothing fancy, just a taco bar with three kinds of taco shells, three kinds of filling (one vegan, all gluten free), all sorts of toppings and garnishes, and homemade brownies made with butter and extra chocolate for desert. Alas, the brownies are neither vegan nor gluten-free, so those with special needs will have to choose between fruit or ice cream.

If you are in the high desert area, you are invited! Just let me know. Should be fun. I know that a least a few people will be here (maybe more!), so that is a big step above the last party I gave where no one showed up. (But that was so long ago, I’m not sure it even counts.)

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Pat Bertram is the author of the suspense novels Light Bringer, More Deaths Than One, A Spark of Heavenly Fire,andDaughter Am I. Bertram is also the author of Grief: The Great Yearning, “an exquisite book, wrenching to read, and at the same time full of profound truths.” Connect with Pat on Google+. Like Pat on Facebook.